Leaking Energy

We spent the entire meeting last evening speaking about our Morning Exercise. Many of the observations had the quality of sincerity that allowed for deeper conversation.
Our Work is about plugging and stopping our automatic leaks of energy and opening and allowing higher energies in. Our Theme is seeing our leaks of energy. What is my major leak of energy, what are the two or three ways I leak energy the most during the course of the day.
Speaking in general these may fall into negativity, imagination and daydreaming or habitual patterns of behavior and stress.
What occupies my thoughts during the day!
First I need to be sincere and see what my major leaks of energy are.
Second, can I see these impartially.
Finally, over time a leak becoming a reminder to awake, to be present to myself.
Be sincere and genuine with yourself. Whether it is inner considering, stress, food, fear, imagination, envy, judgment, pride – See your leaks, work with them and make note of how it effects your energy and work.

Active and Receptive

The active and receptive work are not separate, we have to see that in working on our presence and collected state there has to be sacrifice, a letting go at the right moment in order to both sustain and deepen our presence.

We think and trust that our will and active work will keep our state, we hold on to our presence, our higher state, where what is needed in the moment is a letting go. In that moment we are receptive to the higher, finer energy within us. We let go of our ordinary will in order to experience a deeper presence and inner life.

We work with strong intention to be in three centers deeply; don’t worry about losing your state and open to something higher, something that sustains a deeper presence. The strong experience of being collected and non-identified is the first and important step, the letting go and opening to the finer sustains and deepens our experience.

Being Collected

Work daily with the Morning Exercise so we can go forward over time. The main thing is a strong Collected State, having the deep experience of the sensation of the body and the mind together and when one does, being present in the emotional center. Work with this deeply.

Our Theme is being Collected during our day. Setting an Intention to wake up in two or three centers a couple of times each day, even if briefly and being present in the centers, being free of surrounding influences and feeling a force and level of energy within.

The means of our work is our Attention; Is it on automatic or directed toward Consciousness. Is my attention just now un-identified; Am I affirming my inner life or my false I, an image I have of myself; My self-importance or emptiness of self; Am I feeding my ego just now or my Soul.

My Aim is to separate I from me.

End of Year Message

As we approach the end of the year it can be useful to contemplate where we are and set our work into the next year with intention.

We are working with letting go of our unnecessary and mechanical suffering. Suffering and pain are a part of life, but we add to it from a habitual place within us – We sometimes don’t trust the moment and we look for something to be anxious or worry about – this is an automatic process. This can be knee-jerk in our self, from self-protection, or the opposite, where even our inner work in the moment can be a desire for just becoming more comfortable or secure.

Often our depression is a focusing on the past and our anxiety is a focus on the future. Peace exists in the present moment.

We can resent, cling to pain, bitterness, anxiety, self-pity, victimhood, anger. We sometimes arrange our angers at our most becoming angles.

Everything that irritates us about others can lead to an understanding of ourselves. We age well by admitting our flaws, inconsistencies, put-ons, masks, fears and humiliations. We make room for them.

Working and seeing with intention are key; breath and presence are important. We strive to see impartially, to be with the breath and our inner breath, to be with our presence. To be with the effort and struggle to be awake,  not succumbing to negativity and sleep while at the same time not fighting with ourselves. Opening to Third Force.

Happiness is a continuation of happening not resisted.

We bow to our presence and the highest in ourselves. We cultivate our inner Being during our waking day.

We bow and connect to our groups, to our group consciousness, to those who strive and seek as we do.

We bow to the higher, we allow in the higher, we strive to understand that nothing that is genuine is possible without help. We open and allow this.

To all of you a Happy Chanukah, a Merry Christmas and a Joyous New Year.

Mechanical Suffering

Briefly about Mechanical Suffering – I enclose a quote from Mr G that says a good deal. We often work in ways that bypass or rise above how we truly are and don’t see the ‘mechanical suffering’ we are participating in internally. Are we engaged in unnecessary bitterness, self pity and victimhood. Can we see this, relax our tensions, put the energy into presence and I-Am.

Can we let go of some of our habitual and mechanical suffering?

“If there is anything in the world that people do not understand it is the idea of sacrifice. They think they have to sacrifice something that they have. For example, I once said that they must sacrifice ‘faith,’ ‘tranquillity,’ ‘health.’ They understand this literally. But then the point is that they have not got either faith, or tranquillity, or health. All these words must be taken in quotation marks. In actual fact they have to sacrifice only what they imagine they have and which in reality they do not have. They must sacrifice their fantasies. But this is difficult for them, very difficult. It is much easier to sacrifice real things. Another thing that people must sacrifice is their suffering. It is very difficult also to sacrifice one’s suffering. A man will renounce any pleasures you like but he will not give up his suffering. Man is made in such a way that he is never so much attached to anything as he is to his suffering. And it is necessary to be free from suffering. No one who is not free from suffering, who has not sacrificed his suffering, can work. Later on a great deal must be said about suffering. Nothing can be attained without suffering but at the same time one must begin by sacrificing suffering.”

From In Search of the Miraculous

Morning Exercise

During the Morning Exercise, at some point we may contact the Work – We can say that this is the Aim of the exercise. When this happens we are in a different world and can feel the presence of a higher energy within. Everything changes, there is a stillness and focus not possible before – We are the exercise, it is not us just doing it. A noticeable change occurs with the breath, which deepens significantly and has no strain, with only a few breaths a minute.
This is a touchstone, a place of homecoming we should be with every morning.
There is a tendency in all of us, in our personality to become identified with this state, with this place. It is important to go after the ‘big apple’, that is, to concentrate the attention even more, to not become identified with the energy and the flow and allow the higher yet to come in.

Working in the present atmosphere

There is much fear and anxiety about, the time we live in can be defined as such. There is little that most folks trust, people don’t fear a specific thing, but everything and will do anything to escape it. Uncertainty and doubt lead to following snake oil salesman – destroying the competing vitriol is rarely a solution.

For us in the work the key is humility. We can be with anxiety and not attempt to escape, we can endure uncertainty and see that being so throws us off our ‘smug island of certainty’ to a world of potential. We can even appreciate the pain and fear and allow them to wake us up.

Let us not lose ourselves in our emotions and remain non-identified. Be an activist if you wish, fight injustice, help those in need if that is your calling. Stay non-identified.

In addition, work on the cause of the problem, energy imbalance – stay within your atmosphere, not leaking, opening to finer energy, remembering who we truly are and connect with gratitude to the gift of being human.

Being in the moment

In the depth of our mechanical life are the stories we tell compulsively about each moment in favor of simply having the moment. Our work, our sittings show us how anything can be emptied of the story we tell about it. Not everything that happens to us happens because of us.

Self Remembering

During the course of my day, when engaged in activity, I attempt to be awake to myself, sensation of my body, my feelings, while I am engaged in outer activity. I am awake to myself in addition to the externals I am seeing or engaged in.

The further step: I am in touch with my inner self, inner life while engaging in the outer. That is, not just my three centers but my inner life, my Being, while I am involved externally. I feel my Being in my solar plexus, I remember my inner life, not just my functional being. I live in two worlds, not just one, I am alive in two worlds here and now.

The miracle of life is being present. Everything begins with this and never ends. Self remembering is our inactive self becoming awake.

From Mr G about the deep layers of Self Remembering:

“There are moments when you become aware not only of what you are doing but also of yourself doing it. You see both ‘I’ and the ‘here’ of ‘I am here’- both the anger and the ‘I’ that is angry.”
View From the Real World

Another quote from Mr G

“A man cannot remember himself because he tries to do so with his mind-at least, in the beginning. Self-remembering begins with self-sensing. It must be done through the instinctive-motor centre and the emotional center. Mind alone does not constitute a human being any more than the driver is the whole equipage. The centre of gravity of change is in the moving and emotional centres, but these are concerned only with the present; the mind looks ahead. The wish to change, to be what one ought to be, must be in our emotional centre, and the ability to do in our body. The feelings may be strong, but the body is lazy, sunk in inertia. Mind must learn the language of the body and feelings, and this is done by correct observation of self. One of the benefits of self-remembering is that one has the possibility of making fewer mistakes in life. But for complete self-remembering all centres must work simultaneously; and they must be artificially stimulated; the mental centre from the outside, the other two from inside. You must distinguish between sensation, emotions, and thoughts; and say to each sensation, emotion, and thought, “Remind me to remember you”, and for this you must have an “I”. And you must begin by separating inner things from outer, to separate “I” from “It”.”


Our Theme is Noticing. How often do we notice what is around us; Do we see what our eyes are looking at, are we aware of our surroundings, people, do we notice ourselves while we notice.

With how many and what centers do we notice? If we notice with three centers we can Be In Contact, and be in the same world as the things we notice. With noticing we enter a world of awareness, with Being In Contact everything changes though everything outwardly is the same.

How often during our day are we present to Noticing, how often are we in Contact.